in continuation to 'The Love Walk'
- http://caravanchala.blogspot.in/2015/07/the-love-walk.html
SHY GUY
The
girl in the shining white dress had disappeared from my sight as she entered
the college building. Although she was gone but I was still standing at that
huge window and I was frozen there. My mind was blank and all my will to enter
the classroom was gone. Other students had started gathering in the classroom
but I was still standing there on the window hoping that she would pass by
again. Unfortunately that did not happen and I decided to go to the class. I entered
the classroom which was actually my first class of my college life. It was my
first day so I didn’t know anyone. I just entered and was looking for a vacant
seat when I felt as if someone was looking at me. I turned in order to see who
it was. And to my surprise it was the same girl, the girl in the white dress. She
caught my eyes, she was looking and me and I couldn’t help myself but just
stare at her. It felt as if an eternity has passed and our eyes were still in contact.
She lowered her eyes. Oh boy! At that gesture of hers I guess something clicked
inside of me. I looked for a seat and
sat down. The class was going on but I
was still thinking about her. How could I possibly be so much attracted to her
on the first day that I saw her? So many thoughts were rushing into my mind. I
would just give a glance towards her while in the class just to figure out if
she was looking at me or not. Never had I ever felt this way. The class ended
and I waited for everyone else to leave so that I can see her while she went
out. I was sitting there on my chair and
she gave me a glance just before stepping out of the door. Again that split
second felt like an age.
College
picked up pace and this thing between us kept on happening. I would wait for
the night to end and the classes to begin so that I could see her the next day.
You know I used to get those chills that you get when you see that someone
special. We would pass brief smiles to each other and greet Hies when we
crossed by but I was so shy to go and approach her. What if she took in it in a
wrong sense? What if the thing that I thought was there was not actually there
on her mind? All these questions made me rethink time and again whenever I
tried to go and approach her. I remember I would stand in front of the mirror
and rehearse on how I shall ask for her number tomorrow. That was really funny
because the next day when I used to meet her I would forget all my rehearsals.
Days
passed by and I had still not approached her. We were still just Hiee friends.
Or I would say we were nothing more that classmates. I never told anyone about
this. The days turned into months and a year passed by but I had not spoken to
her about how I felt. Maybe I was too afraid to share my feelings. Maybe I was
that shy guy who wouldn’t just accept his own true feelings himself. Or maybe I
was just a looser who had no guts at all.
But
things change and so do times and people. Our time was also about to change because it
was just catching fire and the story was yet to begin.
-by Ambuj
